This photo is S's daughter with Smoocherkitty. S is IN LOVE with my cat and clearly her daughter is following in her footsteps.
I really haven't posted since January? Yeah, well, I guess I'm avoiding this topic in real life and on the blog. I was at 302 this morning. I had to force myself to get on the scale this morning. It's easier to be in denial if I don't know what the numbers are. It's not that I'm all freaked out about it, though maybe I should be. I wasn't going to post my weight on here because it's over that horrible 300 number, but then I'm like, what good is having this blog if I'm not honest with myself?
I just have been focusing on being happy. Yeah, I have the occasional minor freak-out, but they're few and far between. I've been hanging with girlfriends, going out to eat (#), drinking margaritas (#), and going on dates (#). I bought a couch for my loft and have been shopping to outfit it in girly hot pink to counteract the 46-inch TV I put up there. I've been hanging out up there in my recliner with my kitties searching match.com.
I joke that my mom and I should write a book about crazy online dating experiences. I'm only partially kidding. Two weekends ago I met a CRAZY CAT MAN. However, the next night I met a really nice guy--Ph.D. cancer researcher, grown kids, seemingly normal. We'll see about him.
So, I'm not sure how to get myself motivated to stop eating too much and to get back to the Y more than I am. Spring is coming sometime soon, so that'll motivate me to walk outside, at least.
I'm sick of tight pants. I'm sick of more belly rolls. I cracked my toilet seat. The fatter I get, the fewer men I'm going to find. Spanx helped 25 lbs. ago, but they don't now. One would think these types of things would be motivating me.
Oh the dreaded toilet seat. I broke 3 of them! One was my mom's and the other was my friends. Ughhh soooo embarrassing!
ReplyDeleteNice to see you doc! xoxo
My worst toilet seat experience was at the movie theater -- the one for the bathroom I went into was askew, and when I sat on it it pinched just a little bit of m inner thing and caused a blood blister. OUCH. And then the stupid kid I reported the broken seat to looked at me like "Stupid fat old woman... if she'd lose weight..."
ReplyDeleteAnd this was almost four years ago!
As for the rest, eh, you'll figure out when you really need to concentrate on the weight. You've had a lot going on, and your priorities have shifted a great deal. I'd recommend some easy calorie cutting measures, but I have a feeling you know all of those ;)
Hang in there!
Hey, girls! Interesting that the toilet seat thing is universal! Amanda, you're right. KNOWING vs. DOING is my problem. I lost over a hundred pounds, so I KNOW what to do, I just have to DO it.
ReplyDeleteI am in the same boat and just keep telling myself, soon as spring gets here I will get motivated again. But at 55 I know when I am kidding myself. No time like the present. Just so hard to get started again.
ReplyDeleteI hear ya, Julie. How's the shoulder?
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ReplyDeleteI started swimming at the YMCA again this week. I'll "go with you" and be your Y Buddy if you like. You're still beautiful!
My shoulder is finally doing well, now I have something called Kienbocks disease in my wrist, ever heard of it? I hadn't. Should just cut this arm off and start over, LOL.
ReplyDeleteJulie--I'm glad your shoulder's better! It's avascular necrosis, right? THAT sucks. So sorry, babe.
ReplyDeleteGlad to see a new post from ya... I was complaining bitterly to my staff this AM that I must be the only person who can go to horse camp, ride 50 miles, all while not falling off the dietary bandwagon to too-terribly-many ways, and GAIN 2 lbs in one week.
ReplyDeleteHopefully it's just hormonal, perimenopausal crap!
Hey! Glad to see you're posting again. So what about going over the 300 mark...don't be too hard on yourself...you've accomplished alot so far. I have one comment about dating services...have you tried eHarmony??? I was trying other services and getting duds (like your ex!) until a friend suggested eHarmony. I met the man of my dreams and have now been married 2 years. I am a 49 yr old BIG girl - 272 lbs - and my husband adores me. I never thought it would happen. I guess you can see why I am such a proponent of eHarmony. Anyway, glad you're back!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Sue. No luck on E-Harmony. Congrats for you! I've heard good things from other people there, too. I've corresponded with maybe 3 men. Nothing so far. I'm letting my subscription expire in a day or two. One guy who seems nice has my "real" email--we'll see...
ReplyDeleteP.s. the photo of the cats in the window would be perfect for the photo challenge called windows.
ReplyDeleteI have started back on my dieting and lost 11 pounds. Have you heard of my fitness pal? Its a site for keeping track of your food, pretty good one and lots of great tools. I find I need to keep track of my food as I am really great at convincing myself that the cheesecake I am eating is actually really good for me, LOL.
ReplyDeleteI just found your blog and wanted to let you know that I have enjoyed reading it! Don't be too hard on yourself, 2009 was a less than stellar year for you and 2010 will be better for you!
ReplyDeleteI love al the photos of your fur babies too! They are all so cute!
You know, whenever I've needed motivation, I've turned to your blog (which, unfortunately, I don't read as often as I'd like - fairly narcissistic right now). And today I found inspiration...in your honesty.
ReplyDeleteI choose health. You choose health. Let's do this together.
Thanks, Anon! It's gotta be true about 2010!
ReplyDeleteSarah, ditto for you! Kinda hard to read my blog, given I'm not really WRITING it! :) And as far as narcissism--we all have to have it, ESPECIALLY if we want to try to do the healthy lifestyle thing! Make ourselves our priority!
Let's do it! I'm starting to feel the rumblings of motivation again.
Julie--Way to go, girl!!
ReplyDeleteJust keep swimming, just keep swimming......I'm going to do 5 squats between every patient tomorrow in your honor, Huge! Then I'll go get bilateral knee replacements, but it's the thought that counts!
ReplyDeleteIcedLatte--I should do some swimming. That would be better than the almost nothing I'm doing now! But, please, don't wreck your knees on my behalf!
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