Maybe Kinda, Sorta Getting Serious?

Yeah, so it's ugly. I'm not horribly upset by it, just kind of, which is perhaps the problem. My cyberfriend, FD, is making me a lot more motivated! Thanks, girlfriend!

I also "know" that the whole shoulder thing and then divorce thing are just easy excuses I've used. OK, they're old news. I need to get over it. Yes, stress makes it harder to avoid eating crappy stuff and to get motivated to work out. Fact. However, if I ate healthier and worked out, I would feel BETTER. So enough!

I got back on Sparkpeople after a few days of procrastination. OK, so the first breakfast I logged was two big brownies and a whole lot of coffee with creamer. Babysteps.

On a good note, my homemade granola is in the oven. Berries and yogurt alone for dinner at work just weren't cutting it--not filling enough to keep me from eating other crap after work. I picked up some quick and easy and relatively healthy stuff to cook for lunches to keep me away from the fast food places before work.

I've still been doing Pilates with K, trainer extraordinaire, about every week or two. My problem--I'm not really working out on my own. I think about going for a walk or going to the Y and then don't do it.

I got so I LOVED working out. Even the cardio. I maybe, kinda, sorta started to understand the runner's high thing (not that I run--I like my knees more than that). I was completely and utterly addicted to weightlifting and Pilates. The shoulder thing got me out of the habit. How do I get back in it? Kicking myself in the ass, I guess. But I'm not doing that. I guess I need someone else to do that. Feel free to do it in the comments, girls (guys if there are any reading).

I also need to be on here more, I think. It's easy to pretend everything's fine if I don't weigh myself and don't hold myself accountable. So this blog and Sparkpeople need to be my way to do that. Stay tuned and see if my sorry ass does it. :)